Alison called this morning around 11am, saying that doc is going to remove John's life support. So he will be on his own. She also said that funeral is planned on the coming weekend. So I booked the ticket to fly out on Friday after work. This is not going to a pleasant trip. Somehow I am afraid of going there. Not like other times, I was always happy and excited about meeting old friends. Additional to that, Alison's voice really disturbed me. She was very upset, a few times she had to stop to calm down. She said that she is scared to lose John. I did not know how to comfort her. I would be scared too. Someone you have been with for years, having a kid together. All the sudden, you realize that he might stop breathing and never comes back. I felt it when my mom passed away. 14 years has passed, I still have hard time to believe that it happened just like that. Imagine that they are wife and husband. Plus she will be a single parent. hmmmmm that is scary. How is she going to explain to her daughter where her father is.

Over the years, I never asked how my dad feels without my mother being around. Maybe I should.

So love what you have. So no regrets in the future. give the best of you to the one who you care and cares for you.